A Selfish Me!

Well for those that know me (or read my blog) lol know that Carlos has been sick. He was in the hospital for a full week then had to go back for a day cause he got sick. I have been with him and having been helping him through this. He's my husband and I care and love him deeply. I vowed to God through sickness and health, right? RIGHT!

So then why do I feel mad at him? I know it's not anything he can help, he's sick. But I feel like I put so much time into caring for him that when I am not with him he expects me to be. When I try and talk to him he doesn't answer me. Then someone else will talk to him and he responds to them. He already told me he's pissed at me because I nag about taking his meds and making dr appts and stuff. But that really pisses me off because I care enough to take care of him, you'd think he would have enough respect to treat me with respect. Instead I basically feel crapped on! Srsly, I'm to the point that since it is such a freaking argument for me to ask him to take meds that if he takes them, then he takes them. If not, then he doesn't. I didn't get married to be a freaking widow in a year. I think that pisses me off the most and makes me resent him a bit. I hate to be so ugly and mean but I can only take so much. Then when his family calls, I have to pretend everything is all cool. I don't want to tell them that their brother is an ass and he takes his anger out on me for his sickness. I know they wouldn't think that but still...!

I pray to God a million times a day for different peoples issues or just to praise him for all he has done for everyone. But, why can't I get myself to pray to Him to make these feelings of anger I have go away. It's like I'm satisfied feeling mad. I think tonight I will pray for patience for myself.

Issues, I know! I don't mean to throw it out for all but i srsly needed to vent my feelings!

Carlos hospital pic!

Poor Carlos! He is sooo bored here in the hospital. He wants to go home already, but they have said maybe tomorrow. He is pain free (a 3 on a scale of 1-10) so he is sick of laying in bed. He is also a on clear liquid diet only which he hates. lol He's not as grouchy as I thought he'd be here, but he is becoming impatient!

My mom has all my kids. She is staying at my house with them. They hate it cause she is making them clean! hehe But they love it cause she is cooking and baking away!

Thanks to everyone for all the prayers and well wishes! We love you all and I'll let you know when we go home!

Peace Out!

Married For Life!

Tonight we joined our friends for Married for Life at Rita and Jeremy's house. This was our first time to go and our first time to actually hang out with some of the couples from church. We planned on a Thanksgiving dinner. The food was delicious! Hector fried the turkey, that was the first time I had ever tried it cooked that way, and man was it awesome! Rita's home is so freaking cute. That girl can decorate! Oh, and she dresses really cute too. LOL But for real, her house is nice.

I made Carlos go this time. It's like everytime they have a get together, carlos has to work, or something. So i told him, NO EXCUSES, we are going to go whether you like it or not. He really didn't mind going either, he is just kinda shy. Well, all I know is that we truly have new friends for life. I haven't laughed so hard in a long freaking time. And we actually fit in. The couples are a little younger than Carlos is, but you couldn't tell. It was wholesome fun and we enjoyed ourselves so much.

I can't wait until next month so we can get together again. I think we're going to try and exchange gifts with eachother so that should be a fun time!

1 down, 3 to go?

So I have 4 girls. My oldest is Alicia. She is now 17 years old. She is really cute and very personable. I did not allow her to date in my presence. I know she had "boyfriends" at school, but to let me meet one, Oh Hell No! But now she is ALMOST an adult. So I allow for her boyfriend to come over and they go out. He is a really nice kid. Very respectful and always willing to do anything for us. Go to the store... "Yes, Ma'am!" Do you need money? " Nope, I have it" See he's really good. Almost too good! LOL

I just have this gut feeling that when Alicia turns 18, on May 29th, that she'll want to move outta my house and put off college to move in with this boy, who is 18 now. This really scares me. Like seriously, so I have stopped letting him come over as much. I don't allow for him to buy anything for the kids or even Alicia. Sometimes, I hear her on the phone telling him like we're in Lockhart. I don't know where we are going. Or, we are passing so so place right now. That totally pisses me off! I always starting yelling while she is on the phone with him, that she's only needs to answer to me and she isn't married! But damn, that erks me BAD!

I tried to talk to her but she was like, "But Mom I love him" Damn, I could have slapped her! I was calm and explained how she didn't realize it was puppy love. LOL Yeah, she wanted to slap me back! I hope she still goes to college and pursues her dreams of an education and a good job. Not a dream of living with a boy and having a family at 18. Maybe I'm so scared she'll make my mistakes, but I just want what's best for her. After all, I am the Drama Momma!

Lesson Learned!

Convo I had with my 17 year old daughter right before she was to fix lunch for the kids (cave people).

Alicia: What do I fix for lunch?

Me: Food!

Alicia: For real Mom, quit playing.

Me:Ummm, how 'bout spagetti?

Alicia: Yeah I thought about that but there is no ground meat.

Me: Let me tell you a story daughter.

Alicia: okay....

Me: When I was a little girl my Mom was poor. She couldn't always afford to buy us things, so we made due. When we didn't have shampoo we used a bar of soap. If we didn't have sugar, we did without it. If we didn't have can tomato sauce, she used tomatoes. When we didn't have ground meat, she heated up the ragu sauce and poured it over the noodles! So tell the Cave People they will live and won't die if there is no meat for lunch! Bwhahahhaha!

Alicia: Whatever Mom you suck!

Me: Yeah and your stepdad is happy so shut up! Hahahaha!

Save the DRAMA for your Momma.. oh, that's ME!

I'm Amy, a 32 year old Momma to 6 kids. I was recently married (May 24th, one day before my bday)to the man of my dreams, Carlos! Only I didn't realize how demanding this man would be! Wash his clothes, clean my hair from the shower drain, make him dinner and lunch for work, oh and my favorite, get him a beer! Seriously! LOL! He's great and he's a keeper!
So you probably wonder how can I work and have so many kids at home. Easy... if I stayed home with the kids all day, I might strangle them! Ha! I kid, I kid. Call off CPS! But seriously, I work to keep my sanity. I blog to vent! I drink to unwind! Hahaha, I only drink sometimes!
I did get involved with Ameriplan selling their health discount program and helping people start their company doing the same! Residual income will release me from my spending woes in the future. LOL Then I can stay home while ALL the kids are in school! Great timing huh? check it out http://deliveringonthepromise.com/40611842 ok, I'll stop trying to sell and blog, do ya blame me? LOL!
As far as family goes, I have a Mom, Emma. She is 50 something and has started acting like my grandma. Although she doesn't realize it! My Dad, Gilbert passed away a couple of years ago. That's it about him, cause I still can't talk about that with anyone. I have a twin sister, Cecilia. We call her Sissy. She is ummm, unavailable at the moment. Ha. damn the ghettoness just falls out of me! My oldest Brother, Eric lives in Wyoming with his wife Angela that is in the Air Force. They have 3 kids, Landon, Sophia, and Aiden. Then there is the lil bro, Steve. He lives here in Austin with his wife Sarah. They have 2 kids, errr, Yorkies named Bailey and Sadie. They are the bad kiddos we don't like to invite over.LOL Then there is my clan, Amy, me! Carlos, Dad to Anessa and step dad to the other 5. Alicia, my oldest. She is going to be a senior this year and has a boyfriend. I know, that is scary! Robert, who just turned 14 years old today! He is a freshman now and play the saxophone in band and is a football player too. Ryan is 12 and supposed to go to 6th grade but he failed his Math TAKS. Then there is Audrey she is 10 yrs old. She is really clean and organized. She likes to help out in the kitchen too. Ariana, is 9yrs old. She's like me, LAZY. But she is sharp in school and knows her shit. Alot like me! Haha! Then there is Anessa, my baby girl! She is 6 and gets to do what she wants cause she is the baby. I had my tubes tied so she gets all the spoiling.
So I hope you find my family interesting and we keep you entertained. We are full of Drama, thus the name Drama Momma!